until then x

So......... today's 20th April 2009.

Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging.
The day that KCCO worked so hard for, the purpose of why we sacrificed all our time for.
Today was THE DAY!

(I also dont know why i typed so much, just read the points in purple!)

Woke up at ard 6, changed into CO attire and went to school. The moment i walked in, everyone had their eyes fixed on me like i just came from Mars or something!! Anyway, we rehearsed once more in the gym before heading off to Singapore Conference Hall. Omgsh.... i was so nervous i could pee in my pants or something! Or in this case, skirt. Hahah, but overall, i tried to calm myself down. Practiced holding my sticks by hitting on Huiyi's back. hahaa. Rehearsed once more then headed up! Thanks Adeline! :) She's the helper who helped me carry my yangqin around with me haha. Even though i've been to SCH for about 4 times and been on stage twice, today being 3rd, the stage suddenly feels so unfamiliar today. My palms were sweating like crazzzzzzy. Anyway, we started off with SOC. Still quite okay. Then, FNJ. still....... okay. But it wasn't until i played the 2nd house, THE 5TH NOTE ON MY YANGQIN SUDDENLY BROKE! Omgsh, i got such a shock okay! i was like freaking out, and it was kinda loud, Sophia noticed it. It literally went 'PIAK!' went it snapped! I was like "omg omg omg omg omg what to do?!?!?!" anyway i tried to chill and continue playing. but the broken string overlapped my other strings, and when i hit them, it sounded strange cause of the vibration. and the whole time i was biting my lips cause i was so scared! heng, it didnt break during manban or something. phew. but the ironic thing is that Mr Goh reminded most instruments to bring an extra incase a string breaks or something, and so happened that the instrument that really broke was the instrument that didnt need and did not bring any extras! Oh man :( And i think i was too tramautised and scared that i started tearing up after the performance!! .. and made a huge fool out of myself again. omg, how embarrassing. luckily it was at the lift landing and not many people saw. only the Jurongville and other school people. and they were staring at me like :O ahhh, i was so scared okay!!!!!!!!!!! i kept going "Will deduct points or not?? What if we dont get Gold?? its gonna be my fault! Ahhhh". Anyway, im over it now. and as Alina says, focus on EMDD now. Which is true, what's done is done.. Hiyah. i still hate myself though. Anyway! Thanks everyone for comforting me. And Huiyi was actually feeling okay, until (oops i forgot your name) went to remind her of her mistake - hitting the wrong note. haha, then Huiyi was super upset/emo. Ahh dont be!! We all tried our best already, right? Took a bus back to school, picked my bag up and placed it in class, where i went kinda outta my mind. too tense already, i think. hahaa! i kept laughing at myself, or more like to myself. haha! I SAW CHARLOTTE! BACK IN THE CLASSROOM. when she's gone, im here. when she's here, im gone! this is so sad. anyway, i received good news that Mr Kuoh told the class that i did pretty well for my History test, hhehe yay :) and for my science ca2 which i thought i would fail damn badly for, i passed! 14.5/20, whoa miracle! i think the teacher went crazy or smth and gave me mostly ticks. lightened up after that, haha, then had lunch. sat with the sec 2 plucking people (: haha it was so fun, i couldn't stop laughing! because of Eng yee. Stupid popcorn! Haha. Lao Shi treated us to ice cream! But i didn't take my share cause i was feeling really bloated. What a good decision! haha! everyone was having problems eating the ice cream cause it was melting super fast. Yup, went to the gym to waste time till it was 12.50pm, then went up for lessons, which was DREADFUL. Dra/math was on, in 204 this time. Hmm. I told teacher that i got stomachache and went to the toilet with Fel and Nikko and gossiped for like 10 mins, haha. Went back to class and played hangman with kayxi and janene! hahaa! it was dumb yet fun (: then assembly time! it was the brainy challenge thingy. haha! so fun :) and there's something wrong with Kayxi today, (like-which day is Kayxi RIGHT? haha!) she kept squeezing me SO TIGHTLY, i almost died ok, you stupid ahmunk. HAHA. went home with AJFB after school. "Before you, my Lady", hahaha. Not bad ah Fathiah ;) Okay, i feel like typing alot today and i dont know why.